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ExplosionIt's an explosion of emotions
They've been pent up after all this time
Trying to come out
I want them out
But I don't want to show them to you.
Wait, I want to show them to you.
I'll have to one day.
I want to one day.
Please let that day be soon.
These emotions are running out of patience
They want to come out.
This wall is crumbling down
Thanks a lot for totally destroying it.
Every weapon imaginable,
Real and fantasy
You launched them all right at me
They soared over my walls
And hit me right in the heart.
I'm totally winded, and I can't breathe.
I thought I had everything under control
I was finally past those terrible memories
My life was fine.
Then you can along and made everything so confusing.
I'm feeling things I've never felt before.
Now what should I do?
You're distracting me!!
And I love it and hate it at the same time.
I know what I should focus on
But it's so hard with your voice on repeat in my head.
I tried so hard to block you out.
But who am I kidding?!
To depression, for creating days without endWake up to the realization that you've been awake
for seconds, minutes, hours.
You've been awake in this warm, dark room
and you don't know how long it's been
but now you're conscious
and it starts again--
the pain, strong and steady, in your chest.
You gain consciousness in this too warm morning
and your thoughts whir in endless loops
because it's either that or face the weight in your chest.
Light breaks though the window, soft and unwelcome
but you take it as a reluctant gift--
a new distraction from the feelings awake in your chest.
Awake, but not conscious.
So you think yourself in circles a little while longer
waiting for those quiet pains
(the constant reminder)
to gain consciousness.
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